The road out front is mud. We are almost prisoners now. My computer is still being worked on. The weather is foul.
Why did I take my computer in? Self-sabotage is my middle name. Here I have been working almost a year on a first draft of a book. We finally got a printer a few days ago, after months without one, so I could start printing this thing out and see what I’ve got. The computer was crawling, and so I decided now, of all times, to get it looked at! When all I’ve wanted was to feel like I’ve accomplished my goal of having something done by the time we leave on tour. I’m not worried that the work will be lost – just questioning my lousy timing. It’s been four days now and I’m stuck. Every time I ask if it’ll be ready today, the computer guy says “Maybe. Or tomorrow.”
I’d been wanting to see “Julie & Julia” since it came out back when I was in the US. Maybe I would have enjoyed it more, seeing it there. Watching it in France – I was sort of ashamed. I sank lower and lower into my cinema seat, sure that my American vibes would be detected by the other audience members and they’d stuff me and hang me in effigy outside the theatre as some kind of warning. As the movie dragged on and on, I could understand why it has such a limited release in this country. I don’t know why I expected anything better from Nora Ephron. Her hackdom as a director continues to mystify me, because I always thought she was a fine writer. Why that should translate into an ability to not take the low road, to go for the cute, coy and cliched every time, I don’t know, but I like to expect the best from people. When they used “Psycho Killer” over the lobster scene, I wanted to throw up.
It’s a shame because I swear there was something interesting underneath all the cute concept, about wanting to make your mark, do something with your self. I spend probably too much time thinking about that, these days. Then joke about cows.
Afterwards I had a lousy time at the eyeglass place – my fault for choosing the chain whose spokesperson is Johnny Hallyday! His dessicated visage is everywhere right now. His final tour continues and this week he plays Limoges. It may be the most exciting thing that’s ever happened to the place. Gil Rose et Les Hydropathes, who were here recording, cracked me up because they say Johnny must never, never die. They pray that he is immortal, because should he not be, when he dies France will be in interminable mourning and those who don’t care will have to hide away somewhere until the public grief subsides. Which may take a while.
I’d finally decided to reorder the glasses I lost back in Chicago this summer. The Optic 2000 employees stared at me like I was nuts – look, there are all these other frames here! Why would you get the same pair twice? I tried explaining that I’d chosen those frames, over all the others, so why go through the work, the agony, of looking again?
But things move on quickly in the eyeglass world, and they’re likely no longer available…except in beige. Again, stuck.
Wait, one positive thing – the test pressing was fine, the 45’s are being stamped out at this very moment! Now if we can only figure out how to get someone to brave the mud and deliver the package to us.